I have had, what I am being led to believe is, an epiphany.

It seems all my problems in life stem from a lack of self motivation.

I'm too young to feel this way... watching life pass, feeling bitter about all the things I 'could' and 'should' be doing. F#!& I'm not 102. What's stopping me? I want to fulfill my dreams, and banish all the little niggling urges...the ones that crawl beneath my skin and make my stomach churn in the mornings.




Hmmmm so I have been reading up on the topic of 'motivation' and have discovered some very interesting theories. I have concluded, after the plethora of information I have someone managed to digest, that there are two basic personality types when it comes to the posession of this most imperitive trait - Extrinsic and intrinsic motivation. I am 'extrinsically' motivated - in other words...I rely on the external, i.e other people, to do the hard work for me. Hence my problem with self-efficacy, time management and an inability to complete tasks on my own.





Therefore, in order to improve my ability in achieving some form of structure and progression in life (get my ass into gear) it is most beneficial that 'my type' enlist all possible external motivation and structural stimuli...i.e other people's perspectives, encouragement, advice, yada yada yada. Sooooooo anyway....







This blog was initially going to be just another medium in which to exploit my egotistical and narcassistic tendencies, as well as my obsessive quest for attention - however, I have decided that, after extensive contemplation, I should put in a little more effort. I have come up with what I like to think is a simply splendid idea...




A lemonade stand! A blog and 'forum' (a stand!) on which to experiment with life's lemons...



Basically I compile a list of things I want to do (the coulds, shoulds etc) and also all the random things, big or little that make life that much sweeter...and so each new post/blog becomes a project in which I cultivate ideas and put them into action!